Me....

I am so unhappy with myself that it is affecting my attitude about everything.... About 5 years ago I started a weight loss/get myself under control journey. I lost a little more than 80 lbs. By following a very strict food program, based on AA type program called Compulsive Eaters Anon. Once I reached my goal weight of course I started eating 'normally' again... so of course some of the weight crept back on and I began to panic... so I was back at it, coupled with the fact that I met a WONDERFUL man.. who for various reason did not take our relationship seriously until we had been dating for almost 2 years... so I was trying hard, with the diet and exercise... trying hard to be perfect, trying hard to be everything but me... too bad! Fast forward to now.. I am very happy in my relationship but why is it when I get happy are feel secure, I start letting certain things go? Shouldn't it be the opposite? Shouldn't I try harder to feel good about myself and look good for my MAN? You would think soooooo, maybe if I was normal!
So now I must recognize and get back on track!! For no other reason, but that I like myself better when I am thinner... I will never be skinny, I can live with that, Just want to be thinner.. Not impossible! And definitely more active!! For ME!!! and maybe my man will enjoy the newer me too!!!!!!
I will hold myself accountable here.. Today - I did the Cruise Moves! YEAH.. now eating healthy is the next step! It doesn't help that I am surrounded by Chocolate everyday at work!!! So I must be VERY Strong!! and write it down.. If I eat it... I will write it down!